The K 's

Since we're still working on our other site, I will still post some blog entries in here.

So our Church's Swimming Activity was on Saturday ( April 25,2015 ) and I enjoyed it a little bit but I had some emotional challenges but I eventually got through it the next day, but more on that later. 

It all started when we had a service and cleaned the streets early in the morning because it is National Service Day and we had served our fellow people in our country. At 7a.m I went back home to get ready and we left at 8am or so. Our ward was the first one to arrive so we get to choose our room to put our things in but more people came and we had to share rooms. We then had a program for a while then practiced "Water Safety", Christina and I knew all of the safety practices that they taught us but we listened anyways since we didn't want to disrespect the teachers then after a while they let us swim freely but we were not swimming that much because there were a lot of people and I didn't enjoy the swimming that much since there are too much people touching me and little people holding on to me and I didn't even knew some of them O_O.... But we ate some chips at the upper level where there was a view of the people swimming in the pool and I enjoyed that because the chips and chocolates were delicious  but my enjoyment was gone after a while since they were all hanging out with each other and I was being left out....again.... I don't really blame them since I'm not really that much of a good company around because i don't really know how to make people laugh and I am very very very very awkward to talk to, I personally think that I have more internet friends than in person which is super unhealthy but I just don't know how to talk to people :3. Have you ever felt that feeling where you feel like all your friends abandoned you since they have a super fun time with each other and knowing that they're happy even without you by their side? That's really how I felt at that time. They asked me if I was okay and I just nodded my head then they'd leave me alone, I'm a girl so if a girl is dead silent and if you ask them something and they don't reply to you or they nod your head, they are super angry at something you did or didn't do ( I know, us girls are really complicated   So I was dead silent the whole time even at our shuttle on our way back home they said sorry but it wasn't really enough because they didn't know what I felt and what I was going through because all of my friends are very sociable unlike me but my anger faded away the next day and we're all still friends but lucky for them that they will never feel the way I feel whenever I'm around people... 

( I wasn't in the photo below since I was in that mood I was talking about and I was already dressed up and also I didn't want to join the pic. )